break up le T.T
hey, very long nv post le...
nw damn sad leh... jus broke up wit him... and the reason is because i tested him if he really loved me and trusted me... the result showed that he didnt, but he still saes that he love me...
but wanted to break up cos he jus cnt forgive me for testing him and he is supposed to hate me... wad am i supposed to do? i still love him alot, but he seems to be forgetting me bit by bit now... i really love him alot and hope for a patch, but he sae its already over and we cnt b tgt anymore...
and, i asked the guy that i like wad shd i do when another guy ask me for stead... and he told me to tell him "you r still mine"... when i heard that, i was really very happie nd hope that we cn hav a chance to strt all over again... but he was jus so stubborn and rejcted me again...
wad shd i do? i am really very confused... want to forget him, but jus cnt do so cos i seriously love him too much... feel very conflicted too, cos jus cnt bear to forget him... i really wish that this was all a very long nightmare and once i wake up, everything will b back to normal again... or even if all this was jus a dream n i did nt even confessed to him from the strt, this wae, i will still b happily loving him secretly...
but its jus impossible for this to happen, nw cnt even concentrate on doing me homework and my studies are deproving alot... frm the top 10 in level, till 100 plus... wad cn i do!
nw, he even ignores me when i sms him, i really feel like hugging him once more, but everyone either told me that he was worthless, asking me nt to care bout him le, or others even tell me to giv him time... time? but how long! how long does he need?
wad if he never comesback to me? haiz... i suppose nw, all i cn do is to wait...
will probably wait for him forever...
nw, in class, he seems to b back to normal again, so happie n cheerful... hw i wish i could b like him, forget everything once and for all so that i will nt need to be so troubled and painful anymore... cn sbd tell me wad to do?
its almost a week after we broke up le... n he forgets about me so soon, when i jus cnt giv this all up... why is it so? is he faking to b happie? nop, i dun think so, he seems to b even happier than usual... think he is really happie... so does this means that frm the strt, he hasnt even really loved me before, so he could jus throw everything away once he wanted to?
i think this is it ba, wish him the best of luck in the future and take care, bye my dear T.T
